So really this lack of sadness should be making me happier but then that would only increase the lack, making me sadder and thus happier and less lacking in sadness - making me sad, then happy, then sad again. So actually, my real feelings right now are in fact paradoxical. LOL, okay, what I mean is that I feel as if I should be sadder, what with my high school life coming to an end. I'll never walk into my english room and talk to maria or check out my lack of nice-ass in the big drama-room mirrors again. It's all ending, and yet I'm not missing anything yet. I know they're gone, but I don't feel the emotion. I feel like a robot! Maybe formal will be different. It'll be the last time I actually see quite a few people. Graduation is so depressing and I've been counting all the links that are bound to break. For quite a few people, my only connection to them would be blogspot. And when that dies, bam - gone. Forever. Most likely. LOL but you know, new beginnings and stuff. ... BUT STILL. I'm never gonna see Jenn again, even with the bond we've built through drama, and then there's ol' trinh who'll live her life being that cool girl next door and we'll be so far apart, never seeing each other. I'll miss Catrina too - I'll only ever see her on the slight chance that she goes to see Jessie and I happen to be there.
I said goodbye to Jack today. It was a very short goodbye. He very hesitantly took a photo with me and he hurried away as I said "goodbye" and "stay cool". I hope he does stay cool. I was also supposed to say goodbye to Tommy today. Oh, by the by, today was supposed to be the day where I farewelled everybody outside of our grade (have you noticed I speak on my blog as if I'm only ever talking to someone in our grade?). I only know Jack and Tommy ... And I hardly know Jack and Tommy :L Oh god, I'm really going to miss our grade. I'm going to miss so many people, even if we aren't too close.
I'm going to miss a lot of teachers too. On the plus side, my drama class is gonna have a dinner with miss kenna some time in the next year so that sounds exciting. And maybe, juuust maybe, me, cathy, jessie and cooling can get mac's number so we can also have dinner. That'd be lovely. We can talk about english and he can intro us to his husband. ... I joke, but lol, possibilities, guys. He'll probably be in Turkey by then though :\ And then the US and south 'merica. Freakin' traveller. I'm so sad.
I have more to say but that will be for another time. Au revoir, guys. Au revoir...
Oh, and HELLO EMILY. I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO MENTION: The weather was quite lovely today. The clouds were beautiful. Like my face. Bye bye!
