UPDATE

Hi, guys! So this shall be an update on my past few days. .... Yes. LOL So Maria gave me her lovely little present, and so did Jessica Phan! They were both great presents! Also, Mai got me pimple cream and facewash! LOL Yes, I know, it sounds offensive, but no :L It's not. The joke I think was supposed to be offensive at first, but I laughed it off and hid my pain. ... :L And so yeah, hopefully it's working. Pimple cream keeps getting lost though :L I can never remember where I put it and it's not as huge as the facewash. Also, Emily got me a paramore poster and Alex got me a ceremonials one. And they were top notch posters as well, so thanks, guys! Also, I'm still waiting for Danny to post them darn photos! :@ Anywhoooo, here, have some photos:

NEXT POST. LOL Taking too long on laptop.

Okay so I'm so super-duper excited for my group piece. Can't wait to work with so many awesome people! I got to work with the person I wrote down and my two closest friends! And John Ho :L He's cool too. Can't wait! I've thought of a way to somewhat start the planning :L Umumumumum. Oh, Emily has definitely taken my rank for suresies. Damn hoe :L Damn her! DAMN YOU, EMILY TEA. .... Tea is such a cool last name :L I CAN'T WAIT TIL SHOWCASE WHEN I GET TO SEE EVERYONE'S WORK. I want to get into NIDA. I want it so bad :'( But chances are, what with my very small amount of experience of theatre in the outside world, I will not make it in. Guess I just have to show off a kickass monologue :L .... I've figured what I want mostly, out of being an actor or writer. I don't want to just entertain people. I want to inspire people! Like how the coolios at the top inspired me. I want to do that to little boys and girls across the globe, along with some other things. But people tend to frown upon those "other things" :L I joke, guys, calm down :L

Anywho, lately I've really been into a few songs. Heeeereeee they are: Dear John by T-Swizzle, after reminiscing through her album. I'm Not in Love by the Crystal Castles feat. that guy from the cure. Rumour Has It - Adele. And Matt Corby's Brother. Yeah. LOL :) And Florence's cover of Take Care too :) Okay, that is all for today. Until something else happens, AU REVOIR.

Dynamica

So, like, REALISATION. LOL So I've been thinking of Whedon's work lately, and something else hit me. He is also really good at character dynamic. As in, all his characters interact with each other really well. They all vary in personality quite largely, yet they seem to fit together quite nicely, when it comes to Whedon. And it creates this really nice flow throughout his works. And then there is my script. LOL Nope, none there. I thought about my own work, and yeah, my characters do not talk to each other. Not really. My script pretty much revolves around the bartender, and all the characters talk to him, even when they're all in the same room. Okay, so here is an outline of the structure of my script. It starts with the intro, which is pretty much where the complication occurs, and the characters try to work it out. And it ends up that they have to wait. And in this waiting time, they all have their own talks with the bartender, telling their stories pretty much. And yeah, the only time they actually talk altogether is at the beginnning and end but they only ever actually speak to the bartender, not amongst each other. So, like, I have to rewrite the altogether scenes my script :( And I'm going to try to get the characters talking to each other, rather than to the barman when they can. And I'll try to fit in a alltogether scenes in between each one-on-one convo with the bartender somehow. Buuuut, I may end up writing too much :\ Darn. This is getting harder, and it's due in week nine! Crappp :\ Oh well, let's just see how this plays out. And LOL I'm falling behind on my science studies also ==' I hate you, physics and chem. I hate you so much. Okay, that is all. BYE!

Avengers, ASSEMBLE!

So this was my Anzac Day: 

So, knowing that I had to be at Cabra-Vale Diggers early, I decided not to sleep. And so I didn't. Instead, I went to the city to watch the midnight screening of The Avengers! LOL It was actually really good. I loved it. I was half-expecting it to be a flop with so many superheroes who alraedy had their own movies, and since there was quite a big chance that it was going to be just a hollywood flick that was just there to make money, but no. It was so much more. And of course it was, because the amazing, lovely, brilliant Joss Whedon directed it. He is magnificent, that man :L I aspire to be just like him when I grow up. Because he's the kind of writer/director who treats his projects like his own child, and he puts so much effort and passion into making them. And yeah, he does that thing he always does. He makes you fall in love with a character and kills him off. So, be prepared to lose an avenger, guys :( LOL [oh, spoilers, by the way :L] And yeah, you'd think it would be Samuel L. Jackson acting as Nick Fury, but LOL nope. It's Nick Fury acting as Samuel L. Jackson :L Anywho, the reason why I loved the movie so much was because even though it was created to satisfy and not confuse the general audience, it had so many moments and references for all the the fanboys and fangirls out there. I myself am not one, but I did get the jokes and the lines, those lovely lines really did get me. I shivered every time. And LOL I loved the audience's reaction. At one point, Gwenyth Paltrow was walking away in shorts, and her ass was in the frame, and one of the guys in the middle made a 'mm' sorta sound and everybody heard it and cracked up :L And yeah, it was pretty good. And if you're not a fanboy/fangirl, then no worries. You'll love it anyway. And the fighting scenes were so fine! Amazing! SO GOOD. LOL And at the end, they hint to the next villain, who, let's just say it now, is thanos. So much more powerful than Loki, this movie's villain. Can't wait. This years movie was all about them becoming the avengers, and working their problems out. And by the end, they do work together (spoilers :L) but they are just at the beginning. They can become so much more, and hopefully, that'll be shown in the next film. And fingers crossed it's Joss again. AH. I LOVE THAT MAN. LOL. 

Anywho, I went to the diggers club to represent CVHS. It was so, so, so, so, so cold. I overestimated the warmth of the school blazer. Should've worn more layers or brought gasoline and a match to light myself up. That might've worked too. Oh, and sausage for breakfast. I LOVE sausages. They're my favourite barbeque food :) And LOL, guys, grow up :L Okay, that is all for now. BYE!

Growing Up

So I guess it's time to grow up. Well, really in a year, but it's time to decide. No more under17, indecisive kid with no idea what he's doing. It's time to buck up and pick a path. And now that I've decided to decide... what happens next? LOL I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING. :\ I guess I have been brooding over one choice though. You know, my future career path. And I guess my main goal in life itself is happiness. The truest of happiness'. A happiness I can keep. And so, if I were to follow that path, I'd go into acting/writing. Of course it'll be tough, there are risks and not everybody will be happy with my choice, but it's what I want to do. I just have no idea how to go on about it. LOL I also just realised that I have quite a few issues that are similar to Santana's on Glee. LOL Which is... not that strange. I mean, Glee was designed to hook teenage kids in with mirroring their own problems so they have something to relate to. So, really, that just makes me somewhat typical? D: Also, if I were to pursue my happiness, I'd be letting quite a few people down. Well, three. And people will judge me, and they'll judge my parents and they'll look down at me. And there are all these expectations. I mean, all my family friends were expecting my brother to fail the hsc, because of all the mucking around he did, and then when he got a good uai, people were astounded. What are they going to expect from me? The angel of the family :L LOL I joke, they probably don't remember me, but still! So, I guess the only thing I can do now, and make everybody happy, is follow my dreams, become a star and make a tonne of money. Hm. Okay. LOL But seriously, I think I will follow my dream. I will not grow up and regret living a life I only lived because of 'expectations'. Don't forget me, guys. But, if you do, I'll be sure to jog your memory in the coming years, with you know, the series of ads and billboards about my new, awesome movie. Just you wait.

BUT ON ANOTHER NOTE: I wouldn't mind just acting on a small stage either, watching school kids marvel at my mad skillz :L That'd be nice. Or I could write like Matt Cameron (ofrubydoobymoon) and make hundreds of HSC students study my works :L

Also, on a completely separate note, remember when I fell in love with the lyrics of Florence's I'm Not Calling You A Liar? Probably not 'cause you weren't there, but guess what! I found a live video of her performing it and she is AMAZING. I love it, I love her, I love the words and the notes she holds. I love this song! Okay, LOL, that is all today. I shall now end this post, and bid you adieu, with the performance:

Drowning

So I read Lynana's posts on here and tumblr, and it just got me thinking of the times when I was really obsessed with the notions of drowning and running away, which was a few weeks ago :L But I really wanted to do a video or something associated to some girl feeling as if she's drowning. You know, the typical scene of a sad, misunderstood girl holding her breath underwater in a bathtub. Yeah, although it was somewhat cliche, I thought it was cool. I also liked running away. It started, I guess, with Cassy from skins, in the second season. When she ran away, like she always did when things got hard or became too much, and I found that interesting. And yeah, that was integrated into my own works, what with the Venusian and Jenny. 

Maybe one day, I will create two protagonists, the downer-drowner and the worrywarts-runaway. Yes. Perhaps. And they'll be on two completely different sides of the world, but they will meet, and stop drowning/running. Until one can't help but go back to it, and the other will feel betrayed and go back as well. Drowner will be too stubborn/scared to admit that she was happy, and Runaway could be addicted to sadness, or too blind to see straight, and continue drowning away (kinda like that anchor thing from last post). And they'll never be happy again. Why are they like this? Who knows. Maybe I'll turn it into a tragedy and they'll be my flawed heroes. Anywho, that is all. Also, dreams in my dream journal. Link is on the side :) BYE!

Quick Birthday Post

So this is going to be rushed so I can finish it before my birthday ends.

Okay, so today was very fun. I had lots of it. The picnic was delicious, lovely and great. I took a lot of model photos. I think I've found my calling LOLOLOL And I love all the presents I got! They were all awesome and I can't wait to read/use/hang them (up..). ... Jessie, I loved my river book, you finished it very wellily. I loved every bit of it :') And now my book looks like even more crap. So megabook next year. I also wore my hipster clothes today :L But Maria was not there to see >:( Also, quite a few revelations today. Like the fact that today, I turned seventeen... ON THE SEVENTEENTH. And eric 16 on the 16th last year :L Also, I want more sausages. Also, I realised that I just don't like curry :L As in, I don't hate it, but I'd prefer a lot of other things. I also rode a bike today. It's been so long! And I'm still very slow :L Happiness hit her like a train on a track. I should really by ceremonials and born to die :L Umumum, oh! My pimples will disappear soon, guys. You shall see. And I'd like to thank everybody who came today, I had a lovely time. Also, just keep following the heartlines on your hand. And there was also this really great quote that I read on tumblr, and jess wrote in my book. It is the following.

"We all carry these things that no-one else can see. They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea." :( Okay, lol, happier quote? What about these lovely lyrics from Florence?

Okay, guys, that is all. Goodbye and goodnight. Happy birthday, me :)

'Cause I've loved, and I've lost.

Okay, so I've decided to stop poeming. Well, no, not that. I've decided to stop publishing my poems on my blag, so you guys don't have to worry anymore. Instead, I'm going to keep writing them until I've made a total of 44. .... And then I'll somehow share them all in one list... somewhere... Orrrr, I could create a new blog where I'd put all my poems, and writings and script extracts and whatnot. But that means yet another blog, and that's a lot. And LOL I don't know. I have no idea what I'm doing :L LOL Yeah, I'll ask around. See what I should do, according to others. Also, comment now if you can :)

Anywho, I've been listening to Take Care a lot. It's pretty good. Well, not Drake's version or even the original, lol. I've been listening to Florence's :D :L I like it. She does this really cool outro and it doesn't have that weird bridge sorta thing that drake's version has :L LOL, I love my dear Florence. That's a nice name. So is Clementine. But I looked up a list of hipster baby names for my hipster devil character and it was on the list. LOL OH WELL. I have this long list of female names I'd like if I ever gave birth to a little lady baby but none for a boy. All I have is Jason, Max (if he has a cool vibe to him, over the placenta and gunk) and Peter. But, like, I want a cool name. Like, I don't know, if I could think of one, then it'd be on the list. ... Um, okay, let us think... Like Drake. That's cool and all. But what if my baby doesn't come out black? I'd be very disappointed and I'd disown him, but like LOL I joke, guys. LOL Calm down :L Oh, thought of another nice girl name. April. Yeah. Coolest month in the twelve, brah :L Dammit, boys, why can't you have cool month names. Like December. ... :L Okay, it is chosen. My son's name will be September, and I'll try my hardest to give birth to him in that month. I'll probably have to hold him in, but he WILL be born in November. LOL HEY, I can call my kid Nova. And when he gains superpowers, he'll be SuperNova :) LOL Okay. Decided. Final, too. NOVA TRABTASTIC WILLIAMS TRAN. Yes. Yosh. Yahoo.

Another thing. So I was talking to Mai Le about my script today, and yeah. She ruined it LOL She raised all these questions about why there'd be a bar in the middle of nowhere, why this, why that, DAMMIT MAI :@ We resolved some issues but that ended up raising more so... :L I also got bored of the script one day and I wrote another. Called Seven Devils :L It's about a girl blogger who decided to investigate a haunted house to make her blog famous :L And like the legends say, in the halls of Marilyn Manor, seven devils reside :L And hey, why don't I introduce you to them. So, these are it:

• Carmen, the devil of Lust.
• Robin, the devil of Time.
• Ember, the devil of Heaven.
• Gavin, the devil of Death.
• Isabella, the devil of Mind.
• Joseph, the devil of Fame.
• and Clavicus, the devil of Happiness.

LOL, I was gonna have a twist where when Emma, the blogging protagonist, reaches the last devil, Clavicus, she comes in thinking that the devil takes the form of people's true happiness, and so she walks in and finds it has taken the form of Lucas, the love interest who came in the house also to build a reputation (and the two occasionally meet in various places in the house and fall in love blah blah blah) And she's all happy, and then finds out, that the devil does not show you your happiness, but the thing or person who will hurt you the most. Yeah, Clavicus is a bitch. And yeah, we find out that he was playing her for information, and that he just wanted the house's treasure in the end - the Under-diamonds. LOL A LOT of plot holes everywhere. And no planned story either. So I got lazy and just went back to Gravity. But that now has many visible plot holes too :\

Okay, that's it for now. BYE! :)

Birthday

GUYS. I cannot wait for my birthday! There's gon' be a pickanic and then more food at the time of night 8) Okay, so this post is gon' be real random and I'm very high right now. Well, not high high. Just, you know, should sleep but not in bed... high... Hm, okay. So I really want navy-coloured chinos right now. That'd be cool. And a nice shirt to go with it. But, that means I need nice legs. So I'd like a pair of those as well. You know what? I want a nice body in general. That'd be cool. Yes, yes. It's been so long since I've felt that tingle in my hands, that slightly rough, but so incredibly soothing touch of David's shaved head. My hands are starting to tremble again, but in a bad way. I want them to shake like they had just touched all of heaven compressed in a field of cropped hairs, so sharp, and yet so lovely. I need sleep. I wonder what time the diab class before the gatsby one is. Hm. Josepth Jefferson Jankers. That will be the name of Jess' super-powered son. I shall also adopt him - tear him out of her cold, still arms. Don't worry, guys. She's not dead. It's just that somebody sat on her arms and they're very numb. My god, this post must be annoying. Anywho, lately there have been two things on my mind. My future, and children. Well, I've always had children on my mind, but this time my own and not in such a raunchy way. LOL I joke, I joke. Anywho, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do when I grow up and why. And I've worked out that I don't need money, world-wide fame or anyhting like that (although it wouldn't hurt). I just need happiness. Happiness is lovely. And about children, I've been thinking about my future son a lot. Like, how he'd be and how I'd raise him. And yes, it sounds nice. And my son will be amazing, and all your daughters will want him. Just saying. Also, I've been listening to two albums in particularly lately, also. Those two albums being Lana's Born To Die and Florence's Ceremonials. They're very lovely albums. I'm really into Summertime Sadness, Carmen, Seven Devils and Breaking Down right now. Also, I find the notion of the Beatles, Next Gen really annoying. I haven't really listened to them yet, and I hear Lennon's son is pretty good, but I just don't like how they're using their father's fame and recognition to make their way up the ladder. It's just a little irritating. But oh well. Let's hope they live up to their fathers. And one more thing, Glee's cover of Somebody That I Used to Know wasn't so bad. Everybody kept on saying it was horrible and lacked feeling, but it had some. Maybe not the same feeling that Gotye had intended, but something of it's own. But, okay, it was different and of course, Gotye's ways were a lot better. And Neil (Don't know the character's name or actor's, so I shall call him Neil, as in like white collar :L Also, he is very handsome.) should've been singing Kimbra's parts. But lol, oh well. I like Blaine. He looks very nice in a tight shirt and a bowtie. ... :L Okay. I guess that was it. I should sleep now. Nighty night, guys. Au revoir.

Three Simple Poems ... -ish

1. Far-Away

I’ve got that wintry melancholy,

That autumn fall of daze,

And in this time, I’d like to thank,

The stress, the time, the craze.

For in these weeks of solitude,

I’ve had some time to think.

I’d like to run away now.

I’d like to run, to rise, to sink.

For things are only getting harder,

And this is just enough for me.

Life is just too hectic now,

So now it’s time to freely flee.

It’s the weakness in my veins,

The blue and purple in my lips,

To sacrifice my loneliness,

To sail these full-blown ships.

I’m a boy of the waves now.

Please take me far away.

For here is long from heaven now,

And ceased are better days.

2. Potholes

Sometimes I think the world has too many potholes.

If we could fill them, maybe we could get around better.

But sometimes it’s this getting around that’s the problem.

Because it stops being getting around, and becomes getting away.

Running away. And that is not good.

So maybe we should take some hammers, and make more holes.

That way, people will watch their step, or just stop and look around.

And for those who don’t listen. Well they just end up falling through.

3. Lust

The opal smoke that effervesces from your skin,

It lures me, plays with my mind, and sparks my sin.

The devils that lurk in my head, they call for you.

The demons that control my limbs, they reach for you.

Eyes ablaze, fingernails screeching,

The fire in my soul, a violent purple hue.

It’s those horns of anarchy, those lips of heresy,

That make me want to do what you make me do.

Let our bodies transfuse, let our tongues become wires,

That control our hands, our thoughts, our desires.

Let the room burn down, let us bathe in the fires,

For hell is of the essence, as our lust transpires.

Trace my skin with your hell-torn fingers,

I’ll brush your hair, frayed from ghosts half-lingered.

Let the shadows eat us alive,

Because even if we struggle, even if we try,

We will never, ever, survive.

Lean your head on me, my devil baby.

Brace your arms around me, my demon craving.

And there you have it. Three simple poems :) (-ish) LOL Just realised how much the first two poems contradict each other :L

LOL Can't seem to get over this gif :L

He's just so handsome!

Anywho, what to say, what to say. Hm. Gatsby is pretty alright. Thing is, I'm not listening to Jess, and I'm not reading it all at once :L Which has proven to be quite a bad thing LOL Hm, who knew. I keep getting lost and I have no idea what's going on LOL I just keep hoping Carraway and Tom Buchanan will get it on at one point. Some parts can get very homoerotic :L I'm bookmarking them so I can show y'all :L LOL I should continue reading the book. I should read more. I should read LOL Wait right here. I'm gonna look up who plays Tom in the new movie with Leo. Joel Edgerton. Hm. He looks pretty alright in a suit :L OKAY! Moving on. Um. LOL I think that was it. Bye!

Survey + Hunger Games

So, like, I went around asking three q's at the end of today, and yeah. LOL I should find a better way to finish sentences than with 'yeah' :L Anywho, the three questions were:

1. In  a guy/girl, do you prefer an angel or a demon?
2. Tattoos or piercings?
3. Tattoos/piercings in which region - the pecs/boobs and up, or below?

And yeah. LOL These were the results:

• Demon:4
• Angel: 7

 

• Tatts: 9
• Piercings: 2

 

• Above: 8
• Below: 3

By the way, my results were Angel, Piercings and Above :) LOL Piercing on the tongue, because the speech impediment would be adorable! :L

Okay, now that that's over, HG! :L So I watched that the other day and I really liked it. I liked the symbols, the death, the fighting, the coolness and the mockingjay. And Rue :'( And the beautiful burial scene followed by the rebelling. That was cool. It was just really good! I really liked the knife girl's skill. She was cool. And I like how it wasn't so lovey dovey. It's not bad or anything, but I was much more interested in the games, honestly. I think the only time I would get interested in the romantic side would be if Gale and Peeta got it on. But I doubt that's going to happen. What with Katniss in the way >:( LOL It was good. I enjoyed it. And LOL throughout the movie, "Peeta, you're cool and, yeah, you won too, BUT KATNISS, OH MY GOD, AMAZING. BRAVO, GURL, BRAVO." LOL After the movie, I had the urge to start reading the series, but then I remembered I don't read :L Which reminds me, I should finish Gatsby :\ I guess that's all I have to say about HG :\ LOL Bye! :)