Thursday 21 February 2013

Amazing video, really

So I found this youtube video on tumblr, and it is amazing. It's great, it's beautiful, it's so AHH- I loved it. It's a spoken word poem sorta thing, with a video, and although it's about seven minutes [it's not on the topic of 'seven minutes', it's a seven-minute-long video hahaha], it'll be seven minutes well spent. IT JUST REALLY GETS TO YOU. Well it did when I watched it :L Okay, here's the vid, I hope you enjoy it.



And here, have a video that features disney songs mixed up with radio hits, and cinderella as a gay man, looking for his prince.

Sunday 17 February 2013

Just A Quick Story

Okay, so get this right: today, I went to Newtown to attend this 'Early Buddhism Course' my dad really wanted me to join. I had to wake up super-early and that sucked balls because I couldn't fall asleep until like 3. Anyways, the class wasn't exactly what I thought it was in the sense that it wasn't an intro to Buddhism, but a course about Buddhism back in the dayz. LOL Like origins, and how it spread into western areas and how certain places extinguished the teachings and whatnot - hence 'early'. Anyways, pretty interesting history lessons, but LOL After every 20 minutes, we'd have like a five-minute meditation break, and because I was expecting to learn how to meditate, still thinking it was an intro sorta thing, I had no idea what to do. All the white people around me just closed their eyes and were really silent - LIKE EVERYBODY - and I just sat there looking around, and lol, they keep them eyes shut. Anyways, I kept on trying to meditate and empty my mind and crap, and LOL IT WASN'T WORKING. I was just listening to my terrible breathing, and the echoes in my body and I had a slight headache and LOL I really suck at keeping concentrated and stuff. Oh, by the by, I was completely alone in that class :L During the break I just sat in my chair which was in the middle of the room, clutching onto my mug :L Anyways, okay, so, lol, here comes the freakin embarrassing-ass story. So around noon, we had this big meditation session, for 30 minutes, and LOL oh my goodness gracious, jesus christ, I WAS SO SLEEPY - having slept late and waking up early. And LOL I kept on nodding off here and there. You know how you're sitting upright and you can't stay awake, but you have to, so you end up falling asleep, having your head fall forward and waking up from the shock of your head falling? Okay, lol, badly explained, but it's like that thing in inception where they wake up from falling or whatever :L Anyways, that kept on happening, and I was just waiting for the meditation to end, because I knew there was gonna be an hour-long lunch break where we could leave to find cafes. But oh my god, at one point, I nodded off longer than the other times, which were usually like two second sleeps. And I woke up after the main monk man rung the bell softly, and people started talking amongst themselves. And LOL oh my god, I found myself just hanging my head, and ughhh, my nostrils were really cold and wet and I remembered I had a runny nose, and upon realising what was happening, I quickly wiped it up and pretended to just come out of a deep trance induced by passionate meditating. But oh my god, you could tell I was sleeping, and I found like a patch of snot from my leaking nose on my shirt, and I was so embarassed, I just ran out of there! :L And I may or may not have come back from my lunch................... But seriously, that was the worst course everrrr, I was so alone and it was so boring and I was so sleepy, and maybe I can fix up the sleeping thing next time but I can't go back, I CAN'TTTT :'( Okay, lol, that's it. Au revoir :)

Friday 8 February 2013

6000 VIEWS, WHOO

Okay, lol, so, guess where I was last night? I was at fox studios for my debut tv show LG Hunting with William Trab! It's going to be a hit, but more on that later. After that I went to be part of the audience for the pre-recording of The Voice whaaat. Okay, so even though the wait was long aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas, our session got a surprise performance from the judges - shh, by the by, I can't say much in this post because they said no and I might have signed something, who knows, I don't. Anyways, that was way cool and then the judges sat down, we clapped our asses off for everything, and oh my lord, Ricky Martin. HE LOOKS SO FINE. LOL He's such a handsome man and he's damn good-looking, esp. for his age. LOL Once, he turned to my side of the audience and puckered up, hehehehe, even though it was aimed at the group of old women to the left of me :L Anyways, I sat pretty much behind all the cameras so that sucked balls. I think the one thing I was really excited about at first was the fact that I could maybe get some screentime, BUT THAT WAS ONLY FOR THE BETTER SEATS, UGH. LOL I wore my bright orange shirt so I could stand out but little did I know, fluoro was the way to go. Like, I already had bad seats, but then there's little miss BRIGHT-ASS FLUORO DRESS SITTING IN FRONT OF ME, and not only that, but we have black lights shining on us, and THERE SHE IS, LITTLE MISS PRISSY, SHINING BRIGHT LIKE A FREAKING GLOW STICK, TAKING ALL THE ATTENTION. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, LITTLE GIRL? YOU THINK THIS IS YOUR SHOW?? WELL IT AIN'T AND FLUORO ISN'T EVEN THAT NICE ANYWAYS SO GET WITH THE TIMES, UGH. So anyways, the talent was good and on the plus-side of the whole seating arrangement situation, I was like four or five metres away from Ricky, bathing in his beauty/booty. But yeah, after the break, because people left, and there were holes in the good sides of the audience, we moved to right where the coaches face once they turn back around as to not see the contestants when they walk in. And yeah, during the times in between each audition, the stage would be cleaned and crap, and we could talk amongst ourselves and maybe wave at celebrities. And lol, every single time I tried to wave at Ricky, Delta would see and start waving :L But like yeah, I was doing this circular waving motion with my hands, like making a venn diagram with my hands, right, and delta saw, and she did exactly the same and I was like ahhhhh, THAT WAS JUST FOR ME, WHOO. LOL Second attempt at ricky during another tiny break, Delta waved again and then before like the last audition, which was at like 12 or something, Ricky gave a really tired wave at me and the boys :L Dammit, ricky, why you being like that. Anyways, we left really late and because em was worrying like crazy about her mum and dad and running off, Eric and I ran too and we ended up getting home earlier which was cool. All in all, it was a good night I think, with a few setbacks. OH and there was this guy who was kinda like a host? He was pretty much a guy on a mic telling us, the audience, how to behave and between acts, he would commentate and make jokes, and keep us entertained and he was lovely. He's a funny guy and he knew how to make the right jokes, even if a lot of them were really edgy :L Funny guy, me likey. I wish I was like that but oh well, it's not for everybody. So yeah, bye guys, hope you liked my dream future in the last post and thanks for reading, I really do appreciate it. Au revoir!

Also, I'd just like to give a big thank you to Snezana for actually telling us where to get the tickets :L Without her I would've never gone and I would've missed out. It sucks that you weren't there though :(

The desired future:

Okay, so em, I love how I've been mentioned a lot on your blog because I complained about not being mentioned enough :L It just comes to show that whining gets you things. Anyways, LOL thank you for the compliments, I love them, keep them coming, And I love how I was mentioned with my full name, it makes me feel special :L And LOL I can feel my ego just growing by the minute, I love it :L So here you go, an eye for an eye (in a good way). I very truly believe that you have talent and with all the effort and focus you put into the things you love, or have to love (English :L), you will go so far. I have so much faith in you, which is why I want you to go NIDA so badly now :L Because I always knew that even if I wouldn't make it in, you would. And I'd be happy for you. I don't think you need a degree in arts to make it, but it is a safe path, and you are thinking about stability as well, so if a degree is what you want, then I won't stop you :L Even if I could, lol. So yeah, go in kicking until you reach red carpet :L [Also, for your tea ceremony, you can call it a Tea ceremony. You can call your whole wedding a Tea Ceremony, but lol, your fiance also has a last name but who caresssss :L] Anyways, so:

My desired future would be so cool :L So first thing's first, I'll eat your brains, then Imma start rockin' gold teeth and fangs- It's nicki mirage guys get with it, jesus. Anyways, I'll start uni with engineering and arts. I'll start off with biomed and I think I'll do film subjects, sorry German. Anyways, eventually, I'll drop engineering, because I don't really want that as much as film. I'll make a group of uni friends, I'll develop a nice friendship with someone who is in quite a few of my classes. He/she will be really cool maybe and I'll start writing stories with him or her as a character too because I can, even though it might come off as creepy. Anyways, so like, at the last few months of first year I'll find a cute handsome boy with manmuscles :L Okay, that sounds like I want a muscular minor, so I wont say boy no mo. I'll find a beautiful man to call my own and we'll do the usual - kiss on nye, do cheesy ass valentines stuff, and just you know, fall deeper and deeper in love. Hopefully, during second year, I'll develop a small network of film people, like tech people and actors - oh my god, I want the most perfect actors. Like em and maria and jenn vo LOL Actually, no I don't wanna work with maria, she's too bossy and she'll start directing things and NO >:( LOL Anyways, she can do her own stuff :L NO WAIT, NIDA :L Okay, so I'll try out for ooooh, actually. Considering that I want to be behind the scenes and not act, I might go AFTRS. Noooo, I'll go NIDA, write my own mono for part of my audition (the modern mono part) and pretend some random guy wrote it. Anyways, they'll be like, THAT WAS AN AMAZEBALLS MONO, WILL, YOU'RE TOTES IN and I'll be like hells yeah and my ego will leak out of my eye sockets. Anyways, so I'll act alongside ems and maria because in my dream future, they drop uni and make it into NIDA with me. Oh, and lol, everything I said about my bf except now I meet him in NIDA. Actually, it doesn't have to be from NIDA. He can be a musician that eeh intros me to or like an engineer that mai finds. Anyways, I'll act and act and then I'll do a directing post-grad, or playwriting. Ooh, now I have to make a decision. Hmmmm, okay directing fulltime and maybe I can do small writing workshops, who knows. Anyways, I'll do the course and develop a pretty decent network of actors and film peeps. I'll make a few films which are aiight but there'll be one film that puts me out there, my heart-and-soul film. It'll win a film festival thing or something and I'll sorta be famous among the underground. I'll be a young director-writer with potential and someone will pick up on me and put their faith in me. Someone big, and they'll show me the wider world. I'll do as they say and they'll take me higher until I'm on my own two feet as someone special. People will anticipate my films and praise me. And I could never imagine my first love to be my alltime love. LOL that sounds like alltimelow. Anyways, he'll learn German yeah, in place of me and teach me throughout my acting course. You know what, let's make him a biomed student who is also getting an arts degree majoring in German. ... Oh my god, I'm dating myself :L Anyways, we agree that because he needs to move to Germany to get an actual job that'll take him places and that I need to follow my dream through to the US. We'll seperate on good terms and have one last night together before he flies off. He'll be my first love and forever occupy a space of my heart. Anyways, I'll move to America and let's take a break from me.

So anyways, here's what's up with Maria :L She'll NIDA with me and em and we'll all reach the end happily. They'll probably leave first because they have their deisred degree and go to their own places. But before that, we'll have great times at NIDA. We'll have coffee dates, meet up with friends who go to their own unis, and just hang and stuff. Have fun, live free, love life. Maria and I will hopefully move in together by like the end of 2nd year and sustain a comfortable apartment in the city. Very unlikely though because we are all lazy pieces of assbags who will depend on our parents until the end of time. But we'll have our own home and we'll get along with our lovely neighbours. We'll play boardgames and poker and have movie nights. Anyways, eventually, after maria creates quite a good reputation in the acting pool, she'll move to London. There she'll become famous. She'll be adored by many and she'll get like rocker bfs and stuff, and win craploads of BAFTA's (it's like british oscars or something, who knows it's the uk, they have their own things that the rest of the world are oblivious to). No wait, I'll have a long term r-ship going and he might wanna move in together, but I wanna stay with maria. ... Nah, maria's gonna abandon me and leave me the apartment and then my bf can bunk with me. No wait, what if the only reason maria and I can sustain an apartment is with a third roomie? No wait, this is my dream future, who needs a roomie :L No wait, but it might be fun. He can be like really cool and take us places :L And play music and write it and show us, awwww. I swear to god though, if maria gets on top of him >:( Okay, so that's maria :L

In America, I'll fit in perfectly. People will love me :L I'll find a new roommate and then I'll make a few short artsy videos and because of my reputation in Australia, I'll shine bright like diamond and be practically instantly recognised. I'll find myself in hollywood, and by the by, throughout NIDA and America I'll be writing my baby. It'll be the bomb. In hollywood, I'll show it to a few companies and they'll be like, you know what, that is amazeballs, I'll totes fund yo movie, get in here, brutha! And then I'll get in there and LOL I really don't know how this works :L Okay, so I assume I'll start small-ish and I'll prolly find someone just like me and I'll show him my idea and he'll be like HELLS YEAH THAT'S THE COOL SHITS BRAH (his potty mouth, not mine) and because he's already in the big leagues, he'll help me with it and convince other people that it'll be great, because he knows in his heart and in his gut that it will be. It'll be released, the reviews will be like, wow, this guy is actually pretty good, Emily Tea was fantastical yet again, the story was superduper gripping, I cried a thousand tears, 11 out of 10! And I'll be nominated for an oscar and win it and people see how amazing I am (it's my dream future, the odds will always be in my favour, no matter how ridiculous :L) Anyways, I'll be already in the big leagues among maybe like a new director that makes it big in 2014 or whatever, and old favourites like Tarantino and Nolan and Whedonnn. And I'll have my little group of amazing lovable actors who I'll love dearly and always look out for. LOL Maybe in one movie, I'll hire Natalie Portman when she's old-ish and I'll fanboy when she's not looking. And then I'll make my second masterpiece and my third and nothing will ever be a flop. All my movies will be in the top fifty for imdb and I'll be amazing. My parents will be all like, wow, we were wrong, he's a star and they can brag about my success. I'll be praised and I'll leave a legacy and most important of all, I'll inspire someone just like me to become just like me.

OKAY LET'S TALK MORE ABOUT BOYS AND LOVE. So I'll meet my final love in America. He'll have a cute little accent and he will be adorable. He'll have a good sense of humour, he'll be cuddly and loving and caring and always there for me. He'll cheer me on in my career and I'll support his. We'll both be successful so money won't be a problem. His smile will always be able to make me smile, it'll shine always and never fail to cheer me up. We'll fall in irrevocably deep love and he'll accompany me to all my awards shows. He will be the most adorable guy with the most adorable personality, and he'll make me laugh and he'll find me funny :L And I'll call him beautiful all the time and he'll tell me he's never been so in love and that the universe couldn't tear us apart. I'll write love letters to him and publish them in my memoirs. Also, he'll have tattoos like a tiny star on his pec, near his nipple, and that'll be me, and it shows that I was always a star in his eyes and in his heart, awww, my baby is so sweet LOL Dammit, this better happen. Anyways, one of us will propose to the other. I would like to so I seem less like the woman in the relationship but really I can't imagine doing it, so he'll probably end up doing it OH MY GOD. GUYS, IMAGINE THIS: We both secretly plan to propose to the other and he'll get on his knees and I'll be laughing like it's a joke, as if he knew all along about my proposal and I'll be like, waiiittt. And then he'll repeat, will you marry me, and I'll be like, as long as you marry me and I'll get on my knee and wait, that'll be really awks because we'll both be on our knees, hmmmmmm. LOL Okay, he'll propose and I'll be like well okay, but what do I do with this ring here? No, that's lame. DAMMIT, THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE PERFECT. Okay, anyways, the wedding. It'll be a bit asian and some other culture too because now that you mention it, em, it sounds really cool. Anyways, it'll be indoors, probably a church because I can't think of any place else, and it'll be beautiful. There'll be flowers everywhere and fog and ughhh, it'll be like a fairytale, but like darker. Okay, not bad darker, but like, shades :L Like dark green and crimson and stuff. No wait, it's a wedding, what am I, goth? And almost all weddings have a lot of flowers :L Well, my flowers will be in your face and excessive, dammit :L Ooh, I wonder what flowers LOL Anyways, I'll have like a white suit or peach or something LOL Something bright but not too bright you know... Even though I said white :L But like, I don't know, in my head, I'm imagining something unlike cobalt or something because it's a wedding :L All I know is that I don't want any boring suit, it's my wedding, it'll be me as a suit :L I'll be wearing myself. Oh, and, Maria I think will be my best man, or my brother, one or the other. But like, I don't want to invite my brov to my bachelor party because that'll be awks as what with the police stripper and stuff :L So yeah, first dance. I figured that my wedding must have Where the Lines Overlap because it's a cute song, and when I was obsessed with the song, I always for some reason wanted it to be played at my wedding. Maybe like the song right after my first dance, we'll slow dance and rock out after :L Anyways, we'll marry and then on anniversaries, he'll be in a suit and by a table when I get home, with like candles and food made with his sweat and blood - like sweat soup and blood jelly, fancier food. And then, in like a year, we'll make babies, no wait, it doesn't work like that for two boys. ... We'll adopt a boy and name him Zachary, maybe from Vietnam because like, my dad adopted my oldest brother, and he himself was adopted so I might as well pass on the adoption torch :L And if we want another, we'll get a daughter - like you know, buy her off the black market or something, and we'll name her like Faustina or (my brov apparently dibsed-ed-ed the name Florence already, son of a bitch) ummm Rose or Alice. Azealia is actually a really pretty name. But I want a more cultural name, that isn't british :L EDIT: CLEMENTINE, TOO. Also, I'll try and get an African daughter :L LOL, I hope I'm not being offensive or anyhting. Also, just to clarify, the fact that I want an African child has nothing to do with my black market joke :L LOL Just to clarify, I know my husband should have an opinion but in my dream future, we think the same, so he will agree with everything I want just like I'll agree with everything he wants [because they'll be the same things] :L Okay, so my kids will grow up, and by the by, Huynh and I were thinking about our children's lives. And whilst I was talking to huynh, I realised something.

Okay, break from dream future for a second. It's just that, if we think about our kids now, we should be working really hard, building futures that'll make as much money as we can so our kids will be equal to say, white people. As in, even though, because of our parents' hard work and struggles, we're in uni, we still have to struggle ourselves and follow careers that will benefit our future kids the most because we, right now, are still at a disadvantage. I mean, quite a lot of white kids have the advantage of having parents who earn a lot more money than our parents, and so they can put their kids in private schools, and help pay for schools like NIDA. Their kids can follow any path and their parents can help kickstart their future a lot further. So all in all, we still have to work our asses off for our kids, so we can give them private schools and fund their futures, at least at the start so they have a chance of making it big, going crazy-far in the direction they want to go in. We do have an advantage though, in a way, because through our own experiences and just our lifestyles growing up, we can keep our kids strong and ready for the harsh reality of life - we can still grow our own little asian toughbutts [apologies to any non-asian readers, but I doubt you exist because I don't have many non-asian friends, but come uni :L] [And apologies for all the generalisations but I'm lazy :L]

LOL What else do I talk about... I guess that's it :L

Also, I used the symbol ':L' 41 times in this post, and lol, 18 times :O

Thursday 7 February 2013

Hello, Heaven:

Dammit, I've already forgotten everything. Okay, so on Saturday, I went to Collin's house to hang out with Em, E, Eric, Cole and Huynh and we played board games, which was pretty alright. There were enough players for both so that was good. I was superhungry though and EMILY didn't bring PASTA BAKE. I mean, come onnn LOL I joke, so because we were hungry, after em went home, Eric drove Huynh, E and myself to some food place. And lol, because Eric is the only driver in our group and it was the first time he drove us to places, we had no idea whatsoever of where to go LOL We kept on thinking of places in cabra but you know, we were right next to it and we had a car. We needed to use it to our advantage. So, lol, we ended up going to oportos in some place with maccas near it LOL I should know where it was, but I don't because I have no sense of direction, but it might have been in or around Lansvale. ... Or was that hellen's house? LOL Anyways, that was fun because we just talked about random crap like AIM and movies and it was just really nice to stop and talk, nothing else. Anyways, next day was Hellen's. Eric picked me up at Cabra station and the party was pretty fun too. Like, even though there was a crap tonne of alcohol and I had to tell myself not to get in on any of it, I enjoyed myself and the sushi was great. Drunk hellen wasn't even messed up, ugh, I was just waiting for her to get really weird but LOL she just became more outgoing and carefree? LOL It was nice. I didn't see much of her though. And LOL her room is so white and so her :L I hung out with the sober peeps like Em and drew and the super-drunk mai, who was groping everybody and just shouting like crazy. Swear words all over the place. She doesn't remember though so shh. Anyways, LOL at one point I was following emily and went to Eric's car so we could have nice sober drive around - and don't worry, Eric only had like eight shots and they were all at once so they just slipped right through him like a stream of practically water. Anyways, we went to this park and it was so nice! It was really dark and everyone was running AND I WORE MY MAD SCIENTIST BOOTS BY THE WAY LOL WHICH ARE JUST BIG WHITE GUMBOOTS :L And I was always behind and it was nice to see everybody in front of me enjoying themselves. Anyways, we headed back to the car, attempted to drive to chipping norton which failed, because, you know, andrew sucks and then so Eric went to buy an energy drink and kitkats. And Eric, I apologise for eating your kitkat YOU OFFERED IT TO ME BEFORE AND I THEN YOU GAVE IT TO ME AFTER AND I THOUGH OH OKAY, LOL, YUMMO AND then I ate half of it... LOL Sorry, Eric :L Anyways, had fun with Jenn and walked around - lol, sober funn, whoo, and then we walked to the park nearby, which was cool. There was this really cool swing - like a swing you could stand on and em told me to sit down on it so she could do somehting and drew swung me around like crazy and I was like flying LOL I felt like a tiny rollercoaster :L And then emily swung me and it was so fun but it felt like I was gonna slip off BUT IT WAS SO FUN LOL And yeah, we played on the monkey bars and just mucked about. That was great. Then we went back to the party and it was you know, the aftermath. LOL What was funny was that before I left for the second park Jonah Nugget was just casually drinking in Hellen's room because he didn't get any before and he was just you know, lol, drinking normally, he looked fine and then when I came back from the BLEUURRGHH LOL He was vomitting but not wanting to because, i don't know it's gross or something, and it was such a big change. He was fine before LOL And I tried to help here and there by like holding up his head and holding the bag and pretending to be his guardian angel so I could convince him to vomit more but LOL I don't think he was drunk enough to believe... And yeah, taking care of those who need it sucks asssss, lol, even though I didn't even do much :L But all in all, it'll be a good thing, because  if the universe is fair and stuff, people will take care of me when I'm too drunk to walk - which reminds me:

I wonder what kindof drunk I'd be. I prefer to be like a laughing drunk or somehitng, or like a spaced-out drunk who just walks around staring at nothing. But like, if I'm like my usual myself just more, than that would suck! Everybody would hate me LOL Because I am so damn annoying already, do y'all really want more? :L But mostly, I don't want to be a loud, annoying drunk like Vineyard Blues because I really didn't like drunk Blues and I know others didn't either soooo. But you know me, desperate for attention and crap and ugh, I DON'T WANNA LOL But fingers crossed I am a cool drunk or at least tolerable. OH and the other thing I don't wanna be is a depressed drunk but I have nothing to be depressed about so there's not that much of a chance of it but who knows :\

And after, maria and I had a blast to the past. Well, the day after, not at like midnight, we ain't that crazy, what is wrong with you people, acting bat-crazy. Get it. Bat crazy. Cause they is nocturnal. ..... Okay, anyways, I went to maria's house so we could hang out and we ended up looking at ourselves on fb in 2009 and taking a crapload of photos :L Oh my god, I practically started my fb in my gaga phase and OH LOARD NO PLEASE PAST NOT TODAY NOT EVER Okay, lol, it was just a phase and it wasn't that bad and you just move on. But I don't want to just move on. I want to forget LOL I KEEP GOING BACK AND IT SHIVER AND WRITHE IN PAIN LOL Okay, just carry onnnnnnn............ Anyways, that is all. I'm gonna go write another post now, see y'all tomorrow, or something :) [bye] I;M SORRY BUT I CAN'T BE BOTHERED SPELL CHECKING :L